Today I am boasting on God because He can make a champion out of anyone, even a small girl who hates confrontation.
I’ve heard some people say that they don’t like confrontation or drama but really that’s just what they say to try to justify themselves, to prove to you that they’re not purposely stirring up trouble right before they happily skip into a big, old mess.
I am not one of those people. I really don’t like confrontation and the only time I don’t avoid confrontation is when I feel that I have to say or do things I don’t want to do because I feel that God is pushing me to do so.
Ugh, I feel physically sick whenever it happens. I try to talk myself out of it, try to chicken out on God and just console myself that He’ll still love me, but no – I feel my mouth open and all these words come tumbling out. But it is honestly a good thing, and the more I follow God’s urgings, the more He has built me up and given me the power to speak for Him.
Once I was dreading an encounter that I knew had the potential to turn ugly. I had made a decision that I thought was really the best for this particular organization but some people weren’t too happy about it. We had a meeting set the following week to discuss the decision and I didn’t want to go into it unprepared.
I prayed and prayed and prayed over the meeting. I asked God to speak through me and I surrendered my fear and my pride to Him. When the meeting came, sure enough, the person that I thought would cause the most trouble immediately launched her attack. She fired question after question at me and tried to tear me down while I calmly explained my reasoning and answered her questions. Her volume rose louder and louder while the rest of the attendees sat in awkward silence. Finally, her anger exploded and she rose halfway out of her chair, jabbed her index finger at me and yelled.
I calmly said, “I’m sorry you feel that way, but…” and went on to explain why we were sticking to the decision. And on the inside…
I was ecstatic about how unafraid I was, how steady my hands were and how friendly but powerful my voice remained. I was also a little bit giggly because she was starting to crack me up. I felt like I was watching a bad reality TV show. I realized that I had nothing to fear from her and people like her.
Psalm 27:1 “The Lord is my light and my salvation; whom shall I fear? The Lord is the strength of my life; of whom shall I be afraid?”
When are you most afraid? Has there been a time in your life when God removed your fear from you? Do you think that we have to step out on the edge to show God our faith before He’ll start to remove our fears?
It’s filled with the joy of Christmas and snuggling up close to a fire with hot cocoa. The air is crisp and invigorating. There’ll be parties for hosting, marshmallows for toasting, and caroling out in the snow…unfortunately for me, that’s not enough to make it “the most wonderful time of the year.”
I really like the season but I struggle to enjoy the weather. I try really hard, but it’s just so cold. My choice of clothing tends to be shorts and t-shirts or dresses, and winter really puts a damper on that. Every year I tell myself that this time I won’t let the cold get to me. I’ll bundle up appropriately and go on with my life, spending time outside as I like to do. But each year winter sends me scurrying inside to peep out the window and wait for spring.
As my fingers and toes froze yesterday while feeding the animals, I fantasized about Heaven. I am sure that in Heaven we could experience the beauty of winter without the chill punishing us. We could collapse back into the snow and make a snow angel without a single shiver. If night exists in Heaven, the same principle would apply. Here on earth, night is beautiful with the stars and moon shimmering in the darkness, but it is also cruel. It hides danger and increases fear, but in Heaven, there will be nothing to fear. It will be wonderful.
Are you a winter or summer person? What is your favorite thing about the winter season? And most exciting, what are you looking forward to in Heaven?